Inspiration and the Grand Plan

When It has been a while I have written I always feel like I have lost the ability to write until it starts coming back to me, I don’t think the writing framework I have been using works anymore.

All my articles have always been written in one sitting, a 30 minutes sprint and I let it all out; that was why I always used the framework of “I only write when I need to or when it is overflowing and I need to release.”

I don’t want to write that way anymore, I want to write because the world needs to know, learn and also because there’s really not a lot of time.

So I write the baseline, then edit and revisit every few hours in the span of a few days until it is complete, and that’s how I’m gonna do it.

I have been writing my thoughts for the past 3 years, over 50 articles on my thoughts about life.

At the beginning of every year I always have this feeling that I have lost it, I always struggle to get back to my writing form, this year takes the award for the longest downtime.

Anytime I want to write I always wait for inspiration to strike, it’s either going to hit me like a truck carrying a huge load of cement or not at all.

This is what I have been struggling with for the past few years, when to write and when to not.

So for the past few days I have been keeping the big picture in my mind, telling myself I need to write, I need to write.

Woke up this morning and set my music playlist and fired on.

I think there is a lesson for procrastination here;

If you want to work on a task that requires a huge deal of cognitive load, keep it in mind at all times, keep reminding yourself, nag yourself, then immediately you wake up just attack it. And that’s how you get shit done!

I opened notes a few days ago and I saw two notes, wish list, things I have always wanted to get myself for the longest of times.

I scroll through and realise that I literally have everything there.

When I realised I didn’t even know how to feel; happiness, relief, a sense of accomplishment? Nothing, a sense of growth and gratitude, yes I felt that.

But there are two things that stand out here, a note I have not checked since 2024 and could not remember the contents and was still able to accomplish everything in it.

The second thing that stood out to me was I had no desire to write another ‘Things I need to get’ note.

The journey in-between wishing for my deepest desires and getting them from so much hard work and difficulty has left me a bit pale, I won’t say bruised because the journey was one of growth with no ounce of regret but the journey does rewire you in a way.

It’s the same infamous journey of making money, when you are younger you have dreams to buy this and buy that but as you get on that journey things start to make sense.

Also the journey is a bit different for everyone and people learn different things, popular example; some people learn that money is not enough for happiness then people and meaningful work added to balance it up, while some people just believe that all you need in life is money and more money but, oftentimes, the latter always come to the mindset of the former, sometimes, too late.

The Universe always has your best interest at heart, God in this case, things may seem bleak at times, difficult, stressful, but that’s the grand plan, it’s part of the experience.

So whatever you find yourself doing, hold on to it, be delusional.

Ola and I have a thing where we motivate ourselves. It started as “WE WILL SURVIVE,” now it’s “WE WILL WIN/WE WILL BALL” and that mindset shift changes everything. You are not just on this earth trying to survive, you are actively creating a life, actively pursuing that dream of yours.

Trust the plan and the process, hold out long enough, be courageous, trust yourself, trust your ideas, believe that everything will make sense in the end because they ultimately will.